I pray

I pray for a slow and painful life

Filled with sorrow and fear

Plagued by memories of mistakes

Up till the very end

Torrential darkness to fill the skies

Rain that doesn’t end

A soul burning flame that licks and blackens

The man whom I have been

I pray no joy breaches

The walls I build within

Keep the light out always

Leave me with my sin

I pray any blessings I might have received

Go to those who’ve suffered thanks to me

Send me all their sadness

And a content man I’ll be

Then perhaps, when it’s over

Sometime down the road

I’ll have paid my debts off somewhat

And salvation I may know



When it rains it pours

When it’s good it’s great

When it’s bad it’s worse

Ain’t no middle ground

Least that’s what I found

Normalcy ain’t where I’m bound

Hang on tight

For the coaster ride




8 years

A night I’ll always remember

Though I’ve tried to forget

Unforgivable inaction

Sealed the better ones fate

Imagine today

If the mistake wasn’t made

The life he’d have had

The price I’d need not pay



A laugh that brings life

To my darkened cell

A smile that I swear

Could save me from hell

A body that I need

To hold close and tight

A soul overflowing

With a beautiful light


Welcome back sorrow

Good to see you my friend

Joy pushed you out

But here you are once again

You always come back

When happy gets bored

And decides to move on

Away from my ward

You find me again

So i’m never alone

Sorrow my old friend

Welcome back home


Karma you bastard

Got me again

Think I would learn

You won’t let me win

I get it now

Won’t try anymore

Just leave me be

You’ve won the war




Life keeps on moving

New surprises each day

A mixture of wonder

Sorrow pleasure and pain

Can plan all we want

But can’t change what’s in store

Just take what you get

And be thankful for

The gifts life bestows

Don’t dwell on the pain

Make this life your own

Don’t let others rain

On the parade that is life

It’s yours to decide

Live to the fullest

Don’t hide trapped inside


Fate’s pretty funny

I have to admit

Alone all this time

And ok with it

Then comes a surprise

Half a country away

With a smile that shook me

And still does today

Not quite sure what to do

But one thing i know

Haven’t been this content

Since a long time ago